Two of the biggest examples of this are dance and boys. I'm a dancer and have been passionate about it my whole life. Even though it makes me so happy, I often feel like i am not talented enough. This does come a lot from my coach (I'm on the competitive dance team at my high school) who is crazy and has it in for me for some reason I can't explain. She is contestant lot beating me down and I feel like she does certain things just to hurt me Nd remind me that she has the power. Even though she knows I have depression and that I have a really hard time with it, she still is so evil towards me. You may be thinking ''then why the heck are you dancing on that team?" O have my reasons, but that's a story for another day:)
BOYS. Every teenage girl desires to be loved and wanted by a boy. That's why we spend so much time primping and getting ready for the day- we just want to catch that one special guy's eye so that maybe he will finally notice us. I constantly see couples in the hallway at school and it makes me feel so alone. My best friend on my dance team has been dating her boyfriend steadily for two years and they are practically engaged. I see the way he looks at her and I long for someone to look at me and feel that way about me so badly. I don't think I'm that ugly or fat, but sometimes I second guess myself and figure that's why boys don't pay any attention to me. I want to feel wanted and good enough for a boy to want to be with me. I mean, I've only been on two dates and they were both disastrous with strange boys... I have never even been to a school dance and this is my last year of school! When is it my turn to have a cute boyfriend who loves me for me?
Hopefully someday I will feel better and stop caring what others think.. I really do want to date a cute boy, but for now I am very lonely and singleðŸ˜ðŸŒŸðŸ’§
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